Pregnancy paranoia

I was at the Drs office on Tuesday and just found out that I missed the window on the amnio. I'm not sure that I would have done one anyway with the miscarriage risks, but I am 38 and all that genetic counseling really creeps up on you in the wee hours of the morning. My doctor was out on maternity leave and there was a period there where I got a little lost in the patient shuffle - exactly at the point where I should have had it done.

All of the other tests have come out normal and there is really nothing I can do about it now. Not that I would have anyway, it's just that I've been so careful about keeping track of everything and now I feel like I really dropped the ball. Its kinda taken all the joy out of what has been a breeze of a pregnancy and I can't quite stop crying. L just keeps saying that nothing's changed from Monday to Tuesday. I'm still pregnant and feeling really good when I manage to stop thinking about the missed amnio; the baby is still treating my bladder like its a soccer ball and she's Mia Hamm, she got hiccups yesterday which were the cutest thing I've ever felt and I still need to get her nursery in order. But I just feel...I don't know...lost... This is the most important thing I'll probably ever do and I feel like I totally screwed up.

The L has already made his peace with the odds and I'm happy that he's been able to do that. Apparently he consulted all the women at work who are moms and they either opted out of amnio or have horror stories about misdiagnosis.

Sorry to unload - I'm having a moment. I know that its probably for no cause at all but my brain keeps whispering the 90% certainty versus 99% certainty. A stupid 4%, but oh what can happen in those 4%s...